I'm Deja

About Me

I am a 22-year-old, depressed college dropout. And this is my first website! Welcome to my little corner of the web. I'm going to be super honest about myself here.

Like most people, I didn't know what I wanted to be when I grew up. I never had that eureka moment. I never woke up knowing exactly what I was born to do. I want to believe that I'm more than the mistake of two teenagers. I want to believe that I'm more than a burden to my parents. I mean, there are things I like to do. I like making music and art. I love writing poetry and stories. And I love sharing my creations with the world.

But I don't know how to turn my hobbies into a career. And I don't know how to stop being so self-critical. I know I'm a newb and newbs need to practice practice practice. But I also have debt. And I have to help pay rent. But I can't do that until I establish myself in my career of choice. And I don't even know what my career of choice is.

I went to college for Game Art & Animation. I started a career in IT. I started learning WebDev. I started making digital art. I started painting. I started making music. I started and loved all these things. But when it comes to learning how to make money off them... I fail.

I could blame my depression for all my failures. That won't get me anywhere but further down the rabbit hole. And I do it anyway...

But anyway... This website is a practice run. Not a personal blog or anything. something I can show people. Something I can say I completed. A stepping stool for a career. Something I can look back on and reflect. Hand-Coding Your First Website: HTML and CSS Basics by Rich Armstrong on Skillshare.

Books I Started Writing

  1. Death of a Gothic Lolita
  2. The Time Travelers Daughter
  3. The Fog (Poetry)
  4. An Unnamed Fantasy Novel
  5. The Remedy

Books I Finished Writing

This is my favorite picture of my boyfriend and me at the beach.

An Unordered List of Things